I can’t believe that this is happening,
That someone like you could affect someone like me,
How you could accept all of my faults and flaws,
How you could stoop down to my level,
Why would you want someone like me?
Someone so miserable,
Someone so stupid.

You didn’t listen to all of my remarks,
You pushed me and tried to change me,
You said I deserved better,
I never listened; I just pushed you away,
I insulted myself over and over,
Why? I never knew,
I was so used to thinking low of myself,
So used to people walking all over me
I didn’t notice how you really felt,
I was too self absorbed,
To see you were only trying your hardest to help.

I bottled up all of my emotions and smiled at everyone,
And they thought, “she’s fine,”
But that only made it worse,
I didn’t care if I died,
If I passed away because of a freak accident,
I would be happy, overjoyed,
I would sit there…thinking what everyone would do if I died,
It always played out the same,
Everyone would cry and moan about me some,
But after awhile they would forget me,
Forget I ever existed,
Forget that I ever affected their lives,
Hey, I didn’t matter to them,
I was just a quiet girl, who sat there,
Someone you would never think highly of,
Someone you could always forget about….

So my life plays on,
And I’m just waiting to see what the next act will be,
Will it be misery? Loosing someone? Or maybe happiness?
I’ll never know what it will be,
But I am hoping, now that you’re here,
That it will be a happy ending,
Because I finally know what you mean to me,
And I hope you can feel the same…